I'm going back to xanga.

Its www.xanga.com/eunice_balloony

I am desperate to go to school. I heard the physics teacher is... I heard the literature teacher is... And I'm wondering, how on earth am I going to make it through the 2nd semester doing my best. Like, I don't want to judge who's gonna be teaching me, cos then it'll affect the grades of that subject. :\

I can do thisssss!

Bye loves

(Sometimes people don't know how ridiculous they sound.)

We see things differently, we don't feel the same anymore.

There's just something I really wanna say, but I really gotta pee. Why is it that I always talk about pee at night?

LOL.

(edit)

So as I was saying before I was interrupted by nature's call, I had a very good conversation with _ last night. We talked from 12-130 in the morning. I became so aware of things. There's a speck in my eye! I was reminded of an episode in House, when this guy broke his finger, and started prodding his body. Then he said his whole body hurt, when the real culprit was the finger. Like I was wearing black sunnies, so I see the world without color. Just shades of gray. About how I feel so bogged, like there's never enough of "me" to commit to school, to God, to friends. _ told me that ** told _ about the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. How God made it multiply to feed everyone. At the end of the day, there were leftovers! Even when Kat mentioned it yesterday morning, I made no connection. And on Friday, I was talking to _too, and I finally told someone that I was glad I didn't get fantastic grades for PSLE, cos the choices I made after that would glorify myself and not God. _ told me that @#$ asked once, who honestly studies for God? What I think came out of it was, that God will use our education to glorify Himself if He wants to, so don't self-indulge in being a mugger. I never thought that studying excessively was a "sin". Ultimately, I just wanted A1s, I just didn't want to be seen as stupid, or not good enough. When will I ever feel that living a Godly life, one worthy of the Gospel, will be good enough for me? I thought about how many years I wasted. Three, people, three. Turning points, eh? On Friday night _ and I also talked about wisdom. About how sometimes, you see something, and you know what to do, but are not sure of whether the time is right to do something. God tells you to simply wait, and how hard waiting is. But loving God is never a feeling. Its a decision. Caring is a decision. That applies for all friends too.

So now, I'm really grateful for _, **, and _'s friends.

Thank God.

Oooooh I missed my tablet (:

So the last time I posted was on Thursday. I can't rmb what happened on Friday. Oh yes, I do. I woke up, watched some teevee and youtubed. Went to town for dinner, then bussed to church for CH! 190 was packed, I stood the entire journey. Very firming LOL.

Saturday was lots of fun too. Woke up, went to town again, went to church for Youth Sunday rehearsals. They went well... Yup. Saw Clarice for the first time in a long long time. I missed her so much! Dance was fun. I'm so glad my black pants nightmare didn't come true :P After rehearsals, I waited, at Clarice's insistence, for the shuttle bus to WDL. 45 MINUTES. In that time, 4 901s passed by. By the time we settled for dinner, it was 830/840? I left at 9 to Christabel's house to sleepover ^^ It was funnyyyyy. The first most awkward moment of my entire life. ZOMGGGGG LOL.

Sunday we all woke up kinda late-ish. Morning was alright, svc went fine. After was a bit... Messy. Anyhoos, shan't elaborate anymore. OH. The second most awkward moment of my life HAHAH.

I wanna go go!

Bye loves ^^

♥♥♥♥♥!

So. I just finished 1/3 of my chinese homework. I feel so accomplished, I'm gg watch FS.

Peter and Sam, sittin in a tree...!

You're a chicken!
No, I'm not. Peter, tell him.
Charlie does not bear the slightest resemblance to the bird of a foul persuasion.
Huh?
Charlie's not a chicken.

I'm over the mooooooon!

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Gonna Get Caught lyrics

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Two Worlds Collide lyrics

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Believe In Me lyrics

The teacher calls on you in class, but you haven't been paying attention, and the first thing that you blurt out is:
"The flying nun, definitely."

What do you really think about where you live?
I would love to move back to Australia, or my old home.

You're writing an essay for class, but you're listening to music, so you accidentally end up typing:
"Don't say you're sorry for breaking every inch of my heart"

You fall and break your arm, you scream:
SHIT OW SHIT SHIT SHIT OH MY GOD SHIT!

What does your ex think about you?
I'll tell you when I have one, eh?

You should get a bumper sticker that says:
I love the JoBros.

While high, you like to scream:
"Salt is in my blood!"

What do you say when you come home after a long trip?
"Ohhhh, I wanna go back!"

You friend says she's got tickets to see your favourite band in concert, you say?
Luuuuckyyyyyyyyy!

What were your brother/sister's first words?
Dada(?)

If you could make up a new country, part of your national anthem would be:
"Worlds are spinning round
Theres no time for slowing down
So wont you take a breath
Just take a breath
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
So dont forget to take a breath" Definitely.

Your mom tells you shes pregnant what would you say?
Why so irresponsible, huh!

A good quote to put on your bedroom door would be:
"Knock and I'll come out"

Someone asks you what you're doing, and you reply with:
"Thinking."

Why do you spend so much time on the internet?
Its kinda relaxing.

Your little cousin just won't stop bugging you, so you turn to him/her and shout:
"Nigel!" (I would never shout at my little cousin, btw)

Last night, you had trouble going to sleep because these words kept going through your mind:
Annoying annoying annoying.

What does your grandmother's secret tattoo say?
My grandmother doesn't have a tattoo.


You'd be embarrassed if your dad started randomly singing this:
"Don't say you're sorry for breaking every inch of my heart"

Why is it that your crush isnt you boyfriend/girlfriend?
Cos I don't wanna be his girlfriend? HA!

The coolest tagline for a movie would be:
Don't get mad, get even.

You're feeling like shit, and a friend asks you what's wrong, so you turn to him/her and say:
(smiles) "You really don't want to know"

So, I have been thinking about what I said last night, on the way home from dance. I thought maybe I should take it back. But you know what? Even though I know its wrong, it needed to get out of my system. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a turning point worthy, suddenly-see-the-light moment. I stand by what I said, 100%.

I seriously think its a time for change. I've been in web since I was 12. I'm 15 now. Goodness, just writing that makes me feel all juvenile. But I really can't stay. Well, not can't. My stoic endurance is slowly but surely wearing out. I really don't want to. I don't want to put up with... Things that just wear me down. I'm getting really sick of gritting my teeth, holding my tongue, rolling my eyes. I'm so sick of doing all of it. The secrets, paranoia. No doubt, web is a good ministry, and I will love it, forever and always. I did grow. But then slowly, I think something went wrong. It grew and festered and I was and am just so confused. After youth sunday, I'm on a hiatus from web. I'll miss everyone, terribly. But you know what? I really miss me.

I don't know if I'm doing the "right" thing. "If you don't try, you'll only wonder why." I'm listening to some stuff now. And all I can think of is how sometimes in web, I would just cry, and cry, and cry. After sermon, during worship, outside the main sanctuary.

Too much effort, definitely.

I am appalled. So, so appalled.

I don't care who reads this. Screw censorship.

In the car on the way home from web today, I said "After youth sunday, I may or may not go back to web." What I really meant to say was, "After youth sunday, I'm not going back to web." I just didn't want to be held accountable for what I said. And because I hate it when people use what I say against me.

Where can I even begin to start penning down everything I hate about it now. At the top of my list will be the people who grumbled and complained, and had the friggin audacity to say, "That's not true" to Matt. One word girl: Respect. Second on my list will be... Some people who I thought were my friends. I guess not. People change, all too soon. You know what? DO NOT even bother to justfy your actions. You wanna know why? Because I don't really want to know. I hate hypocrites. When ever your name is mentioned, I seriously shudder. I'm going to forget about you now. If you don't want to be bothered with me, go get caught up with your melodramatic life, why don't you? Go. Third would be the group of people whom I had thought were nice, whom I had given a chance. If she were there, you wouldn't have behaved as such. You wanna bet? You were the ones who told me that something was wrong within. And if you behave like that, seriously, I wonder why. Since when were things like that? People placed haphazardly, for convenience's sake. I tried seeing it in another light. I really did. Fourth would be sitting on the floor for service. I don't get it. Seriously, I don't. Maybe back then, it was a way of being a good servant or something, a good disciple of Christ. Fifth would be living in the past. Frankly I don't think people ever forget. Things are just so deeply etched in our minds. Its no fault, but you gotta admit, its tiring to have to deal with. Sixth would be having to choke time out to travel across the island, 21 km of it, in all its glory, on a bus, every Saturday afternoon/evening. What I go to is to my friends, God. Yes. But also to drama. I'm like basically going at 60km/h towards something that I hate and love.

I don't apologize for ranting. You were in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Gnight.

GSS! says:
nope
just do whatever
and abt the thursday thing
howwww
i cant make it on thurs cos i have training
Le Yi says:
sr
*er
GSS! says:
should i pon?
Le Yi says:
ok
GSS! says:
or can i like
stalk you
Le Yi says:
no lah
haha
GSS! says:
:P

I caught Hannah Montana the movie today w Hannah and her friends ^^ Bawled my eyes out when she sang The Climb. Even though I'd heard it before. I absolutely loved it. Lucas Till!!! :P


Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - The Climb lyrics


Now you can bawl your eyes out, too!

Anyhoos. I woke up really early this morning. No one sent me to school so I went by myself. Reached at like 730, went back out of school to get lo mai kai! Started training, ended training. Went to PS. There was this ex-convict campaign going on with an ex-convict talking too quickly for comprehension, asking for too much money, making me feel too guilty. And I don't like people like that. So I didn't donate, duh. Walked around, watched movie, blah blahblahhhhhh!

Went to the arcade, and I got freakin chased out! Like, so damn rudely. Some aunty smacked my bag so hard and said, "Hello, school! Out!" I just gave her my blur/amused look and went out. She crushed my boots and glove. Annoying shit.

Went all around in search for an open Gelare, THERE WAS NONE. Went to Far East and Taka. Everytime I stepped into a mall I would have to put on my jacket. I felt like Hannah Montana!

Went to GWC for dinner, Pepper Lunch-ed! Love, love, love!

I seriously gots to go shippings!

Gnight peeps ^^

Damn LSCEP. I shall wait for the sun to set before starting my interface. I shall tell you about my day. Its going to be dark in approximately 15 mintues, I predict.

So I woke up at 8. And I can't remember what I did except for watching tv all morning. Well, till 1130 anyways. Haha the Rachael Ray show is vvvvv entertaining! A square meal on a round plate! We'll see ya when we see ya. I mean, who says these things? Okay, back to my tv morning. I watched TOY STORY 2!!!!!! Woody's so cute! Buzz too! I love the green dinosaur. "How do you spell FBI?" LOL!

I zoomed to church, had lunch, dance, and came home. How disapointing, the events of my day only took like 3 minutes to type out. Very well then, I shall tell you about yesterday.

I didn't build up quite enough angst/stamina to run in the morning. For most part I walked/jogged sloooooowly. I had breakfast. I think. Once again, I can't remember doing anything but watching tv in the morning. Tsktsk. Went for WG and WEB. Came home. Web was really strange. I miss having sermons. WG was. SO. (I don't know what.) It was so wg-y. HAHAHA. Dinner was so strange. The fishball noodle aunty gave me pork w my noodles. Thaddeus kidnapped my wallet. I traded meals w Ethel. HAHAHAHA.

Okay, and now here's the part everyone hates in blog posts, because you can't help but be paranoid when you read what you're about to read. But you know what? I'm going to say it anyways. Yup, that's what I'm going to do.

So. I can't tell if you're pissed or not, but I know you are not talking to me, and are very studiously ignoring me. Know what? I'm perfectly fine with that, because maybe what I said made you sad/angry. What was written in the post wasn't all about you, just so you know. And I am not going to pursue this matter any further, because its just going to escalate, and will eventually be blown outta proportion. I won't write down anything else I think about you, because it all may/may not be proven wrong. As I said, I've learnt not to judge.

The sun still hasn't set.

Do everything
Without complaining
Do everything
Without arguing

Then we'll become
Blameless and pure
Children of God

I still remember watching a video, when I was young. Young and oh, so fascinated. It was a video, of a teenage boy and girl arguing about who will clear the mess of a broken vase. Who will vacuum the floor. And in the end, they bake cookies, and instead of going rollerblading and skateboarding, they gave the cookies to an elderly neighbor.

Yknow, what happened to that? Seriously. Back in the day, when we did nice things. When gentlemen stood up to greet a lady.

You've known someone, and realize that they've changed. Way, way beyond recognition.

Why are people loving God conditionally? Quote, I'll only go if someone "speical" goes, unquote. Do you love God? Do you? How can you tell me that you're going to start training, and then say that your A Math teacher will drain you out/give you a headache and you'll be exhausted, so won't be going for CH? Back in the day, when loving God was to the gain of His kingdom, not us.

Aaaaaanyways.

I'm watching Oprah now. A 12 year old karate world champ. He is such a gentleman. He replies Oprah with a "Yes, ma'am" or "No, ma'am". He's so humble, but not in a I'm-better-than-you-cos-I'm-humble way, so genuine. You can totally tell that he loves doing what he does. His enthusiasm and the way his face lights up when he talks is just... You should see it. His name's Simon Weaver, I think.

See, guys need to be more like that.

Yesterday was frickin funnn! First, I had training. Training's becoming less and less of a pain hmmmm (: We had a game, which was really awesomeeeee ^^ So sad I had to leave in the middle of the game though. LOL, I owe my team seoul garden? HAHA.

Managed to find WG at ECP easily enough. I was there for like 3 minutes and a frisbee that Tzung Ern threw hit my head :O LOL it was quite funny actually. Haaaaaaa! Anyhoos, we had lunch in the sweltering heat!

Oooooh! HA! Oh, shit!---------> So classic.

LOL :D We played Ultimate Frisbee after lunch. It rocked hahahah! Tzung Ern's team had like 2 people more but in the end, the team with the uh, lesser people(?) WON! 6-nil LOL :P Viola got injured, so we went to Vanessa's at ard 3+. The boys, being so, so macho, decided to climb the 22 storeys. :\ I'm just speechless. Boys... LOL.

Eventful day. I gotta go tag some photos now bb!

So. I almost had a perfect day today. Right now, I think the only thing working in my favor is my tablet battery.

Woke up this morning, planned to go run BUT THEN I was so frickin tired, so I just went back to sleep. Got woken up eventually. Showered, changed, ate. Went for Ah Mai Gu Gu's baptizm. I like her church! Its quite cool, even though its all in Chinese. You can really see the people united and caring and I don't know if its just the old folks or whatever, but I've not seen that in a long, long time.

Went to BPJ for dance. Had a lunch of fishballs and hashbrown. :\ I gotta stop stop stop eating fried food! ):< Dance was great. I taught Joy! Haha, I don't even know if I'm qualified to do that, but we both turned out dancing okay heeeeeee :D Yknow, I love dance. If anything, it challenges me. Who'd you rather glorify: Yourself, your friends, or God? Seriously. Lessons to learn!

After dance, went to TBP to walk around while the parents had a meeting. Got SO BORED :O Spent so much $$$ tsktsk. Went home to collect Seth and Hannah and Divina, had dinner at Tiantian w family to celebrate Ah Mai Gu Gu's baptizm.

Went home, watched Sunday School Musical.

Being pissed off now, gnight.

I look scary HAHAH.

Under 16 you're anorexic, or close to it.
17-50 you're normal.
51 or over sorry you're a big, fat, fatty.

You have eaten or drank this week,

[X] water.
[ ] orange juice.
[X] milk.
[ ] soda
[ ] beer.
[ ] champagne.
[ ] any other alcohol.
[ ] v8.
[ ] raspberry tea.
[ ] grape juice.
[ ] cranberry juice.
[ ] apple juice.
[ ] capri sun.
[ ] hi-c.
[X] chocolate milk.
[ ] strawberry milk.
[ ] coffee.
[ ] lemonade.
Total: 3

[ ] pizza.
[ ] tacos.
[ ] burritos
[X] rice.
[ ] beans.
[ ] fries.
[ ] lays.
[ ] baked lays.
[ ] burger king.
[ ] mcdonald's.
[ ] wendy's.
[ ] checkers.
[X] ham.
[X] cheese.
[ ] hot dog/corn dog.
[X] chicken.
[ ] turkey.
[ ] beef.
total: 4

[ ] rice/soy cakes.
[ ] chocolate cake.
[ ] vanilla cake.
[X] other kind of cake
[ ] banana.
[ ] strawberries.
[ ] grapes.
[ ] chocolate ice cream.
[ ] vanilla ice cream.
[ ] strawberry ice cream
[ ] another kind of ice cream.
[ ] spaghetti.
[ ] spagettios.
[ ] fetuccini.
[ ] another kind of pasta.
total: 1

[ ] sushi.
[X] shrimp.
[ ] lobster.
[ ] crab.
[ ] cheeseburger/burger.
[X] cookies
[X] pork.
[ ] snack cakes.
[ ] popcorn.
[X] noodles.
[ ] cereal.
[X] crackers.
[X] bread
[ ] marshmallows.
[ ] oats.
[ ] grits.
total: 6

[ ] peanut butter.
[ ] peanuts.
[ ] sunflower seeds.
[ ] nuts.
[ ] popsicles.
[ ] lettuce.
[x] eggs.
[ ] bacon.
[ ] poptarts.
[ ] doritos.
[ ] fried chicken.
total: 1

[ ] pudding.
[ ] cheesecake.
[ ] hershey's chocolate.
[ ] granola bar.
[ ] mango.
[ ] pineapple.
[ ] peach.
[ ] chicken sandwich.
[ ] baked potato.
[x] other fruit
TOTAL: 2

ALTOGETHER: 17

Believe me, this quiz is NOT proportionate to my size HAHA. :P

:\ Today was exhausting.

Woke up at 6, decided not to bathe before training(I was so stupid to PLAN a bath before getting all sweaty and muddy), so I went back to sleep and re-woke up at 6.45. Went for training, I think I'm starting to improve!!! :D After training, I was HUNGRY and ti-red, and of course, Mummy had to take so long to come. We swung by Bt Batok for Popo, then to St Margs for Hannah, then home. We finally ate at like 2.30. It was fun. Sotongs are like BOMBS on hotplates. Beware, seriously. Had dental, and dental again. HAHA, yup, its true, you better believe it. I got separators in today!

):< Braces/Bonding/Wdv on Thursday!

Yay yay yay HAHAHA

Bye loves!