I feel strangely calm.

You know what? Even if people say that about me, even if its one of the closest person in my life, its fine by me. My attitude sucks? And I'm self-righteous, I think everyone's is too bitchy, mean, bimbo?

I do not bitch about my closest friends. Maybe I did before, but I really don't anymore.

I hate that in one teenage lifetime, you cannot screw up your social life without it staying with you for forever. Haunting. I hate that there's no room for mistakes, there's no room to fix things up. 11 again? I'll take it. I don't bitch about your friends. Sometimes, I just have lots to get off my chest, and forgive me if I trusted you.

I just don't understand when I talk about my friends problems, that you think I'm bitching about them. I never said that they were "emo-ing". I hate that word, and I'm pretty sure I've not used that on anyone of my friends before.

You know, I liked hanging out with you. I didn't know you saw it as a hindrance to your social life. I didn't know you enjoyed watching the OC better without me.

Thanks for letting me know, I guess.