26: Down The Drain

I couldn't finish the blooooody Lit test. I could, if i had decided to write my conclusion after 3 inferences. But I just had to write that Mrs Norton was a jinx, JINXING my paper. I didn't even finish explaining it. Or analyzing it.

25: Dara's Delusional Movement

EVERY DAMN THING I HAVE PAINSTAKINGLY TYPED FOR THE LAST TWO HOURS, TEN MINUTES HAS VANISHED FROM MY SCREEN, UNSAVED.

CM IS CURSED.

CURSE YOU STUPID LIT.

24: Winner Takes It All

Typical. When everyone gets distinctions, you get a C. When everyone does average, you get a B. Seriously. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. I know! You're INSANE. Repeatedly doing the wrong thing. This definition is by Albert Einstein, BTW.

I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR HY. I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR SC. I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR MATH.

You see, I'll get at least 3 distinctions. So unlikely yeah?

I know.

Bye loves

("I don't want to talk, cos it makes me feel sad")

23: The Climb

My eyes hurt! The one which was hit especially. When I look at stuff, they seem further away/closer. When I enter brightly lit places or roll my eyes it hurts for a bit and there's a bruise forming aldy arrrrgh JEAN!!!

I studied from 9-12 and 1-9.40 today. I'm so friggin proud of myself.

Well another week is ahead. Wish me luck people.

Bye loves!

22: Bulls' Eye

I got hit by the bloody ball during training today ): There's the stitch mark on my eye lid. No bruise haha thank God.

I havent been posting in a damn long time. Been mugging till 3am the past 3 days. Well. Tues, Wed and Thurs. I've got alotta work to do! But I shall not be emo, because the best prize that life has to offer is the chance to work hard at work worth doing. Did you know? Theodore Rosevelt said that BTW.

Nyeeehehhh. Watching HSM3. I need to memrise alot of shitz for home ec.

OH! And I think I know what I wanna do next year. Double science. Double math. Double Humans. 8. :D

Bye loves

21: I'll Stand By You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xstLRWHgD2Q

Lets take a break from HY. I'm so sick of HY. Arrrrrrrh. I'm quite frustrated, yknow. I need to do so much. But then again, this doubles as MYE Rev. Sometimes, I feel that there's just so much for me to do that no matter what I just keep getting slower and slower. No matter how early I stay up, or study, or sacrifice, it won't ever be nearly enough.

Its quite depressing.

God, give me grace to do your will/ In my life, be lifted high.

20: Super

There's no game today.

Go figure.

19: Worthy

I really cannot stand it anymore. Clay Marble is simply too depressing. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Really, Renee should ask her dad to tell Mingfong Ho to stop writing books.

I'M GNA CRY SHIT! Its 1.13am, and I'm still doing HW.

I think the school's overdoing it.

18: There Are Better Ways to Kill Me

After I got my bbt today, I told myself that I won't be mad anymore. But I really must get this out of my system. I'm gonna put it on the world wide web.

Firstly, the Chinese test which I got a C for, mummy told me this afternoon that it was O LEVEL STANDARD. Secondly, I feel damn lousy, cos tmr is HY's triple period before the CT tmr, and I will only be there for 1.
Next, Home Ec theory test is on MONDAY, and I havent memorised the shit yet. I have the portfolio to complete plus, I need to practice baking the damn thing. Fourth, Ms Vanitha just set us a whole lot of homework. Character analysis for Jantu and Dara ch 1-9 by FRIDAY. I need to do IC Reflections again, CL vocab, math hol hw corr., edit script by tonight, memorise lines by 7am tmr morning, and do props by friday. The school conveinently took away 1 day from our drama workshop, which means that we have to madly scramble for time to rehearse, do props, memorise lines, study for HY CT, on top of our more than usual hw and

ARGH THERE ARE BETTER WAYS TO KILL ME.

For example, as Natasha asked me:

Which way do you be preferred to be killed?
a. Strangled
b. suffocated by carbon monoxide
c. sexually assulted and then strangled
d. stabbed

Ha-ha.

17: (It Just Hurts Too Much)

FYI, people, I'm NOT being emotional. Its just that last night, while studying late into the night/early morning, I had a horrible, cursed, headache. Sinuses were retarded. :\ I managed to finish all my work though! So I'm very happy with my new system, you know! Come home, bathe, eat, be retarded for a bit, sleep, then work, and sleep again. Do you know why you should do that? Its actually because every hour you get of sleep before midnight is 2 times as good as every hour of sleep you get from 00 01 hours! :D

Today we did our 2.4km run. I PASSED AGAIN HEY HO I'M HAPPY! Mdm Heng(LOL!!!!!) Mrs Heng said, "18.15! Okay, very good!" What's saddening is, last year, I walked the whole way, and my timing was 21.14. So. Hahaha. Wdv this time I really tried, and so for that I'm extremely proud of me!

I think, that the kind of mentality I had to adopt for the streaming thing. Like. If I got to 3s2b, or 3c1, or 3g1, I won't be sad, I'll only be happy. Cos I know that I'll put in everything I have, and if thats still not enough, then the right thing to do will be to just accept the fact and move on. Cos everything's gonna be alright people!

So, don't stress over grades. Yes they are important, but when you look back at the end of the year, is it more important for you to be able to say, "I got 6. I feel so unaccomplished. ZOMG!" Or would you want to say, "I got 10. But my x-th year of existance has been honoring to God." Hmm? Don't get carried away, too engrossed.

Bye loves!

16: Burn Baby Burn

This is the life of a sec2 mugger.

430-530: ci yu
530-630: rev d1 and d2
630-730: dindin!
730-830: chi prac paper
830-930: study home ec
930-1030: study hy chap 8 seq
1030-11: chi test corrections (I still canNOT believe I got a C for Chinese)

I'm so sad. I'm frickin procrastinating now, cos I just do NOT want to do d2 rev.

Chemistry sucks. I still dont know what science to take next year, and I'm definately not smart enough to go to triple science, at the rate I'm going so.

Lets just look on the bright side of life, and pretend that I'm gg to be in 3C1 next year.

:D

Bye loves

(edit)

My head is seriously pounding. I've got HY Ch 8. CT is on FRIDAY and I won't be there for a single stinking class, cos the 3 period class is on THURSDAY, 10.30-12.

):

somebody saaaaaave me. Be glad you don't lead a mugg-aaaah's life.

Gnight loves

15: Hooky

I hate LSCEP/Art so frickin much.

Adobe be dammed. (Pun fun! ^^)

Bye loves.

14: Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Well, I wouldn't really know who to address, since my tag board tells me this site is not frequented. But anyhow.

HI.

Friday was good. I studied in the morning, I can't rmb what else I did HAHAHA.

I went for Channel Heaven Reloaded. I really related to it. We don't fight FOR victory, we fight from victory. Victory is yours when the battle is His, and so, because of the cross, we HAVE IT.

Sometimes, I feel that we are just too attuned to our own "inner-voice", that even when we hear from God, asking us to do smth, we know what to do, but try to judge the situation ourselves. Then we don't do it, cos its too hard, too scary. Too ambitious? But actually we CAN do it, God's in us, victory is within us.

After Channel Heaven, went for supper! Proceeded back to church, where Hannah and Charmaine camwhored/digicammed. Basically they took pictures & made alot of noise :P I was being very hardworking. Mugging away the chinese idioms. Hehh, idioms. ^^

Got home real late. Slept.

Saturday was tiring. Training, where I thought about the being attuned to ourselves thing. I was just too scared to slide to base, even though I did it without the base there. Training was fun! Scrimmage was Saturday Morning Live. :P Got picked up late, lunched, bathed, went to church to study. WG pissed me off. I really miss clarice, really alot, alot alot. Dinner was so funny! I was crazy/sober but drunk. Nyyyeeeh! Service was alright. I didnt take a nap. I was reminded of Jacob Black one too many times, I think. Seriously though, when did he become so biiiiiig and taaaaallllll? His voice sounds low! Hahaha shiit I sound like such a freaky stalker. I told you, I was sober but drunk. Haaaaaa!

Daddy zoomed us home! YAY :D

I had tuition early in the morning. I hate tuition! So early. The topics are pretty irrelevant too. I want one-to-one tuition, or else I DON'T WANT AT ALL ): Ahya, but how to tell mummy daddy lah? After tuition I bought banmian home. BIG mistake. It was so gross and melted-y. Watched CR while doing my Chinese work, the last of it, actually. SO HAPPY! While I was working, Seth ate his poop and started crying.

-.-?

Seeeeth, okay, I really don't understand you. Boys are strange, as I have mentioned before. This just proves my hypothesis. Heeee!

Went to Botanic Gardens. Iluvitthere! I'm gg there sometime soon to walk the whole place! Who wants to come w meeeee?

I'm watching The Pacifier now. Gg to start doing my work.

Bye loves!

13: Save Me From Myself

Hello world, this is me, can't you see
Hello world can't you see, life's meant to be

Fun for everyone

12: My Ambition

I want to move to Perth when I grow up. Its so gna happen. I love Perth. I love Australia. I'm gonna kidnap Sethie and bring him along! He can go to Rehoboth too. (:

I just spent a shit load of time completing 2/3 of my Math holiday hw. I stumbled upon Eunice Tan's multiply. I wish I could go to school there! Sounds super cool. So many honors classes she's taking. Now why doesn't Spore have that! I want to take honors classes ^^

My eyes are crossed.

I'm super stressed. So much to do now! The end of march holidays means that the MYEs are coming!!!

Sooner than you think.

11: Bleedin'

Quote: Gynacologists are weird and hav such weird pictures on their comp
Source: TZUNG (ZOMG! I can't believe it)

Today's training was good. I really want to write something here, but its against my better judgement, since this is for the world wide web. Heeeeee :P Anyhow. I had fun. I discovered that the helmet makes funny sounds when you run with it. I MADE IT TO FIRST BASE TODAY! I hit the ball. ZOMG I'M SO HAPPY! Running around catching balls was fun too. Tiring.

I'm going to finish my math HW today. I WILL I WILL I WILL.

Its all in the mind baby, all in the mind.

Bye loves

10: Just So You Know

1. I don't answer to anyone but God
2. Only God will judge me
3. I'm really tired of trying to care what you think, what you say, what you feel
4. Its not that I don't get it
5. Its that YOU don't
6. I'm going to focus on things which are important, but that's kinda hard, considering everything
7. You might wanna take a step back, because I just may decide to blow up
8. You're wringing me dry here
9. Get out of my life, cos
10. YOU SUCK

LADEDUM I CANT DECIDE ON WHICH MOOD TO BE IN, SO I'LL JUST BE MY FAVOURITE.

numb.

9: The OC Potato

I'm in a happy mood today. Mummy and Daddy are coming back! HEEHEEE! I just thought that we should all take a break from reading "I don't know what to do" and depressing stuff, hmm? Leaving my worries behind. It feels so good. I'll wait another day to deal with it. Like tomorrow.

So now, I'm going to talk bullshit! Seth won't kiss me! He says I chouchou. ):< CHOUCHOU YOUR HEAD! YOU THEN CHOUCHOU! Okay I sound damn petty now. I'm going to eat my prawn meeeee!

Bye loves

8: Disturbia

Today was a long one. Woke up damn early in the morning, got breakfast after bathing, took a cab to ah ma's house got my skirt, went to school, went for lunch, went for training.

Training.

It wasnt physically tiring, but it was in every other way. Training was supposed to start at 3, but it started at 2. After alighting from the bus, I was so happy, cos I thought that I was so early( it was 2.05). Then when I reached, I found the whole damn team there. I kept thinking, I'll always be one step behind, cos I don't love it as much. And after training, I was thinking of when I was reading 19 minutes in subway when I could have been on the bus, on my way to school. Frustration.

Enough SB talk.

Okay, okay, its okay.

No wonder I find myself not knowing what to do.

I know what to do.

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time. You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room. While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend. And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses. You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

6: He's Just Not That Into You

So, I watched it last night. It was pretty nice hehe, I quite like Gigi.

The theme was interesting, the whole HE'S NOT CALLING ME! stress and what not. Cos seriously, when are people going to realize that guys don't complete girls? Its so strange.

Anyhoo, if the movie gave me anything, it gave me inspiration. I deleted my fb account. Or rather, deactivated.

Drama free. I like it. I woke up at 11.30, watched a movie, had lunch and I'm watching MTV now (:

I will bathe and then start doing my work for the day.

PS: Happy days aren't so happy after all, eh.

5: On the Contrary

Service was good yesterday. I'm gna gather my thoughts here and try to come to a positive consensus.

Context: Phil 2:5-11

CHRIST-LIKENESS?

Christ-likeness is obeying God's will for me on earth.

HUMILITY

To do that we must have no prerogatives.
We are sinners, and we should be grateful for everything we have.
Humility- The eat humble pie kind and the lowering yourself kind.
Jesus lowered Himself and forsake his prerogatives.

OBEDIENCE

Phil 2:8> God humbled himself to death on a cross.
Luke 22:30-44> God was human. He did not want to die for us. But He did it, because He knew it was God's will.
God did suffer. He did, He did, HE DID.
Pouring life into death- Its very strange, silly even, from a superficial point of view.

EXALTATION

Phil 2:9 >he humbled himself and became obedient to death-- even death on a cross! THEREFORE God exalted him to the highest place
God was lowered and then lifted to the highest place and was given the name that was above all other names.

For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.

4: Let's Review

Work that I need to do by dinner

1. science wb d4
2. ignore math
3. finish studying hy chap 8

*

I'm going to watch He's Just Not That Into You later on! :D I'm so happy! I'm gna watch a movie FINALLY. ZOMG, I can imagine how losery I sound LOL.

Tuition was peaceful. I decided not to go to church last minute, ate at subway! Studied for a bit, then came home. I dropped my phone and the battery went flying. So much for helping to clear up right.

Anyway, I really hate that one minute you're here and the next, you've gone, in a puff of smoke. Or should I say powerpuff of smoke.

I really hate that things are so social now. I can't imagine how to carry on. I was fretting over going, did you know? I guess some people are MIA for reasons, and they should not be condemned for the way they deal with it. With that said, I still don't know why I don't have the courage to stay home and sleep/watch tv/ hang out with Seth. Maybe because that doesnt require courage. It requires cheek.

I find myself saying "I don't know (what to do)" more and more these days.

Why is it so hard to love God?

3: Presence



Just for laughs ^^

2: Prerogatives

Jesus, in A-Z form.

A- Awesome
B- Best
C- Cool
D- Daddy
E- Everything
F- Forever(?)
G- Genius
H- Hot in the heart/ Handsome
I- I AM
J- Jehovah Jireh
K- King of Kings
L- Lord of Lords
M- Magnificent
N- No Nonsense
O- Official (I just thought of it!)
P- Permanently good
Q- Queen's Lord
R- Respected (Again, since my memory fails me, I just thought of it)
S- Sovereign
T- Terrific
U- U-R-GR8!
V- VERI NAIS!
W- Wonderful
X- XOXO
Y- YOU DA MAN!
Z- Zigamaroon ie: powerful!

They were so funny! Pity I forgot some of them though. All in all, I think I'm glad I went for WG. Even though I kept getting damn pissed off at someone, it was worth it. Sometimes, you've gots to see past all of that.

Wolfed dinner down, not a smart move, if I may add. I smelt like noodles after that, I dunno why. Hmmm (: Talked with Grace and Ethel before service started. Sat with them. I liked the first song! Hehh very fun to jump and jump ^^

Service was really good. I like Tim's sermons. Very understandable. Maybe its because it is a simper topic than what Matt/Kat/Adults preach about. But you gots to admit, he has a way of making things reach out to you. Or I guess God has a way of using him.

Anyhoos, I've got a full day ahead tmr. I shall remind myself not to consume ANY dairy products tmr.

Gnight loves

1: Outraged





Jonleeeeee whattttt?!?!?!?!